How can you live like this?

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How can you live like this
Don’t you want to leave,
I have to go away
I have to believe.

Remember what you said
How does it get so bad,
How can they pull the trigger
In spite of what they had?

Was it accidental
Maybe in some cases,
Those ones were too far gone
Others are going places.

It’s when you don’t believe
I think that’s what you said,
When you think it won’t get better
You start wishing you were dead.

Over disappointment
Over living in this mess,
Over never getting out
And hating life I guess.

Did you ever get that low?
Only once, a few years back,
I closed my eyes and begged to leave
To sink into the endless black.

I can’t live like this much longer
I think I have to leave,
I have to find a way without you
I have to believe.